Dear 2024

Dear 2024,

WELCOME!

Come on in! Take a seat, settle down, make yourself comfortable. It’s just me and you for now. I prepared something for us. And yes I did cook! The banquet is significantly smaller this time. After all, it’s just us. The view is pretty amazing here tho. Come sit! I am glad you made it. Thanks for coming. The chocolates and desserts are significantly few this time. After all, it’s just me and you. I did prepare something different for you this time- optimism. It’s something I have not served in years. I have the usual creativity here for you as well. I made space -or at least not by choice. But there’s more space now. I intend to fill it with the essentials.

I did the usual traditions for “luck” hoping this would bring prosperity to the year. I put up the lucky colors around my space to attract prosperity. Honestly, I was a bit stressed about it because I wanted things to go perfectly. I wanted this year to bring in luck. I feel like I needed it after a gruesome battle and stretch. Not that I deserve it because honestly I was not really nice this year. And I do not deserve anything. I realize that the universe does not owe me anything. Even if I was the nicest, the most generous, the most understanding, it does not guarantee a smooth sailing year. The universe will not always give me what I think I deserve, but it will give me what I really need.

When I started my 30th year, I was impressed by the Singlish word “Heng” which means “good luck/ good fortune”. And I took that word and ran with it. Since then, I forgot about that word. The rest of the year turned out differently. Would I say I had Heng? Not always, but I was fortunate.

WHAT DO I DESERVE

I asked God why is this happening to me. I tried to live my life without hurting anyone even to my own expense. I tried to be a good daughter through and through. Isn’t there some karma law that rewards that? And He humbled me. Jesus lived the model life, the good son life, yet He was betrayed and killed. But it had to happen to give us what we need. He will not always give me what I think I deserve, but he will always give me what I need. I put my trust to that. No lucky charm, or karma law can ever derail what He has in store.

So what is this preparation about? Is this for luck to come? No. Actually no. This is a thank you that I made it here. That you, 2024, made it here. So bring down what you have in store for me. We’ll take a look at that later. For now, let’s just sit and watch the skies light up.

I’m glad you are here

Love,

Marj